Archive for July, 2011

Why I blog

I started this blog so that I could track my emotional status as time goes by. I’ve been fortunate to have found some excellent people along the way who have come to my blog and have been very supportive.

I cycle. I know I have some type of depression and was diagnosed over 20 years ago. I’ve been able to put aside many of the unhealthy ways of self medicating but have not continued to use the healthy ones. Its like I forget that I am dealing with depression.

Severe consequences emotionally for not taking care of myself. If you ever been depressed and come out of an episode you know what I mean.  When you find yourself in great pain and there are no solutions that look good, healthy or otherwise it is a dismal place to be.

So I blog to remind myself to take care of myself because alcoholism isn’t the only thing I dealing with.


In the studio

So things move slow when you are only in the studio two hours a week. Things are progressing and the first song is close to finished.

Its good to be back.

And another one

And we lose another one.

It just sucks. This disease is a killer. IT destroys families and runs people into the ground.

I feel so fortunate that AA was there for me when I was ready to quit drinking. But for the grace God there go I.

Wet Blanket

Are they even called albums anymore?

So today was the first day of recording down at M. Moogis Studio. So far so good. Expectations and enthusiasm are both high. Brutal riffs and grooves done old school with just enough new metal influence to keep it relevant.

Why did I ever try to do anything else? I feel like someone took the wet blanket off my life. 

It has been 22 years since I was last in the studio with my own material. Why did I wait so long? I am a song writer and a performer. Nothing in life feels so right as when I am doing those two things.

I am not an engineer. Never was, never will be. It generates an income and provides some mental challenge.

To thine own self be true. I am a song writer and performer.