Avoid pain at all costs. I think that is why I started drinking at the age of twelve. Drinking to get drunk too.

My first sponsor gave me an exercise that I will never forget. He told me to sit for one hour in a chair and unless the room was on fire to not get up. He said just sit. I was about one month sober at the time and twenty years old. It was a miracle that I made it all the way through.

It is amazing how my mind unwinds and solutions to my problems just seem to appear when I just sit. Why don’t I do this everyday? Life is too full of distractions. There are too many distractions in life that temporarily kill the pain of my problems. Some of them are highly effective and leave me feeling hollow.

Why can’t I stop running from pain?

  1. One day, all of the answers will be revealed. In the meantime, just enjoy the journey.

  2. For me, because it’s what is familiar. Sick? Yep. It is what it is. I couldn’t sit still for 10 whole minutes let alone an hour.

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